Well, I (we) have been keeping a very big secret for several months. Some of you may already know, but quite frankly, I have been too embarassed/shocked to tell many people. I've just been able to come to terms with it myself. I am pregnant...4 months. And yes, we had just done something which we thought was "permanant" to conclude our family but apparently this baby wanted to come anyway. We are very scared. And quite honestly it has been emotionally trying on our marriage. But I think we're finally getting to a point where we realize that once this baby comes, we'll wonder what all the anxiety was about. I know that we have enough love for one more...maybe not enough room or money...but definitely enough love.
Besides having to battle my own feelings of fear and doubt, I've found the reactions of people are even more difficult to deal with. "Are you nuts?" "Shut up!" "But I thought you.....". I can't say these comments are the least bit surprising but they really don't feel "good". I sometimes feel like a teenager who isn't supposed to be pregnant. Maybe I'm paranoid but I feel like the second I turn around someone is chuckling or whispering. I'll have to get over that, I know. Because I do know when this little Kriebel pops out all that will disappear and everyone will just accept that we have a lot of freakin' kids and heck, aren't we blessed?
Anyhow, our "Oh Crap!" baby (as Thea has called it) is coming in January. (Just like the previous 2, I might add...makes for a lot of birthday parties in one month) I have had many ultrasounds and a CVS screening (sort of like an early amnio...screens for all chromosonal abnormalities). Looks like a healthy baby...which is GREAT news! The kids are excited too...they just want to know where the baby will sleep, where he/she will sit at the dinner table, and what kind of new car will we get so we can fit all EIGHT of us. We don't have any answers to any of these questions, by the way. What do you think of this for a license plate: 8ISENUF ???
That's about it!
11.5 week ultrasound
Sunday, July 30, 2006
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